I probably should have posted something, as it’s been over a week, but as the title of this post says, I started my junior year of high school this past week. Today’s Friday, September 1st, (it’s also Eid, so Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim friends!), and I wanted to write this post about things I’ve realized lately. I wasn’t feeling like writing a post about books, but if this interests you, please keep reading!
The first thing is, well, I’m a junior in high school now. I know, it sounds young to many bloggers, but I started this blog in 8th grade. I’ve changed…like, so much. I can’t believe I’m an upperclassman (!!!) now. I survived two years at a super vigorous STEM school.
Kind of along similar lines, I also turn 16 this month. And nothing’s actually happening, I know–I’m not even going to have a Sweet Sixteen–but it feels like I’ve reached a certain point in my life. I mean, 16! It’s supposed to be a great year! I finally got my permit, so I’m going to try driving soon. I don’t know. It just feels weird I guess. In my head, I’ve always idealized being sixteen in a way. Or it always seemed so far away, and now it’s right around the corner and knowing that just feels different.
One thing I’ve realized is that…I don’t think I’m ever going to be avidly reading and blogging with the same fervor as I did when I first started. Nope, this does not mean I’m quitting blogging. This most certainly does not mean I don’t enjoy reading anymore. Because I do. I love doing both, still. It’s only that at one point in my life, these two things were so important for me that I forgot about other things. And I sometimes miss that, being completely obsessed. But now I realize it’s not really the best thing–it shouldn’t be taking over my thoughts. They’re both still things that are really dear to me, and will always be. The thing is, though, I think I have to come to terms with the fact that it’s not going to be in the same way as it was two years ago.
Something else I noticed was that (in the past year, actually), contrary to popular belief, you can be good at (and love) both humanities and STEM. Why is there such a distinct line between the two? Why do you have to be either a “STEM” student or a “humanities” student? Because heck, I’m not that good at biology, but I still love it, and I am better at humanities classes, but that doesn’t mean I can’t pursue a career in STEM. Anyway, I want to talk about this later, but just food for thought.
I also realized, I mean–I had always known it, but I especially realized–I reaaallly want to do something art related in college. I’ve never taken an actual art course since fourth grade, but I really love drawing. I’m definitely not that good, but considering the fact that I’m pretty much self-taught…I like to think I’m not that bad, either.
Similarly, I want to learn a new language SO bad. Arabic, for practicality (since I already speak Turkish, and Arabic would be useful in the Middle East), and Russian, purely out of interest. It would be SO cool.
Finally, of course I have other things to say, but maybe for later, I want to have more posts like this on my blog. Of course this blog will still be book-related mostly, but I want it to be a bit more personal. Plus, I can put up posts even when I’m not reading that much. I’ll probably call all of these posts “Musings”. Some of my old posts have a really childish voice, and these posts might balance them since I’ll probably talk about more serious stuff. Anyway, I hope you’re interested in that!
I honestly don’t know who read through this whole jumble of thoughts, but if you did, thank you! It truly means a lot to me. Even if no one did, it felt good to write in a “mature” way on this blog–it kind of helps me sort out my feelings. (Please tell me if you did in fact read all the way through!)
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